The world has shifted and my world has a new order... let us see how i refocus my view....

FNF
Pupzki
xxx

yep... going to spend some time trying to redevelop something i wrote about 10 years ago so that will go up in the next few days providingi havent coughed up my liver...

finally got round to writing the next piece of my descent into madness..

comments would be great

pups

its been.... almost 4 months since i last updated anything on here..

im alive in some weird way. workin 43hr weeks in mindnumbing jobs so hopefully going to think up new ideas for Pieces.

im still writing notes for the piece i came up with a few months ago, sooner or later i'll actually write the dam thing. i keep changing the perspective so its been encircling itself for a long time. part of me still doesnt know which angle to make a stab at it from so i guess that will come with time..

I guess i'll end it here for now. mar uses my laptop alot more than me now since hers broke so im not on very often anymore so hopefully absense will use this black cloud thats handing over me to pour forth some vile tales.

Until then.

7 deadly sins and 13 seconds, ..all the perfumes of arabia could not sweeten this little hand...

sayonara

i know its been a while since i last updated..

as i write this i am on the brink of crashing. my mind and body feel in pieces and my soul is screaming. Since friday my MD has been playing up badly... ive barely eaten more than twice and slept for maybe 7 or 8 hours since friday i feel on the brink of madness. i wonder what the point in life is and i feel the lust to make myself bleed over and over until this loathing subsides. the longer i try to shrug off the impeding crash the more my head starts pounding and blood pours from my nose. gah, i guess i just cant control it like i used to.

hopefully this dark cloud will lift later tonight... my lady returns from her trip home... she seems to soothe this void somehow.. one of these days i'll work out how she cures my insomnia by just being there..

i miss her badly